I hope they can fix it in time!

Yesterday Nate and i were moving some of our stuff into our apartment so needless to say I have a few scrapes on my hands well at least that is all I thought had happened. We were eating and all of a sudden Nate says to me, " Jena, where is your diamond?" I thought to myself what is he talking about the center diamond is there. But he was talking about one of the diamonds on the side of my ring somehow yesterday it had fallen out. I couldn't stop thinking about it all night wondering what I was going to do. Are the jewelers going to be able to fix it in TWO days? I sure hope they can. Otherwise I am going to be wearing a ring with a missing diamond and of course it isn't one of the small ones, it is totally noticeable!!

The Countdown is on....

25 more days until I get married.

Things left to do:

Get Nate's ring

Send out invitations

Get my bridals done

Take out my endowments

Move into our apartment

I am getting so excited I am just ready to start my life with Nate!

Don't let a Novice do it.....

This is what happens when you let a novice cut your hair (look how straight that line is though.)Nate has been pestering me to cut his hair I have told him numerous times I have never done it and don't know how. He said oh it isn't that hard. Well on Sunday I finally agreed he said he would just shave it if I messed up. He took off the extension and told me to go around his ear, he didn't tell me it would cut that close. I looked at what I had done and thought oh crap we have pictures in two weeks what are we going to do? Suck we are going to have to push our pictures back. You should have seen Nate's reaction he didn't get mad he just looked at it and shook his head and said, "Jena, did you really do that?" I love how he doesn't get mad at me he has alot of patience, because I am pretty sure I would have been mad if someone had done that to me. So needless to say I can't fix what I have done we are just going to have to wait for it to grow out and push our pictures back. After the fact he said, "You were right when you said you didn't know how to do it in the future when you tell me you don't know how to do something I am definately going to believe you." He was really sweet about the whole situation he knew I felt terrible and didn't get mad he just laughed about it while I cried about it. I know years from now I will look back on this and laugh but at the moment it isn't that comical to me.

How we became Nate & Jena

So as I am sure you are aware Nate and I are engaged. We are getting married May 7th and can't wait. I am ready for all the planning to be done and it to just happen.

How we met: We met on a blind date August of 2005, two weeks before school to start. I went with a kid from Jordan and Nate was with his girlfriend. It was a fun night but I didn't think anything of it. During the night we were talking about where we were going to college I asked Nate what classes he had he didn't really have an idea it was kind of funny cause he didn't really seem to care whereas I knew what and where my classes were. Fast forward a few weeks I walk into my first class and you know the anticipation you get when you walk into a class for the first time sweaty hands and all. As I walk into the class I hear someone yell my name I immediately think oh great...I look over and what do you know there is Nate. We ended up having two classes together that semester. Nothing much happened that semester between the two of us he broke up with his girlfriend and I got a boyfriend. Our friendship began to grow and Nate always tried to get me to hang out with him but duh I had a boyfriend. Anyways long story short I dated my boyfriend for a year he went on a mission and Nate was there for me. I had a rough time and he was so good to me. He was just what I needed I loved spending time with him, but I wasn't interested in dating him I just wanted to be friends. He left on a mission and got back in Feb a little after I got home from Ecuador. We hung out the day after he got home it was as if he hadn't ever left he was the Nate I knew and loved (even if I didn't know at that time). We hung out for a bit and then he started to put pressure on me to be his gf and I wasn't ready. We didn't talk for about three months, during this time I kept getting reminders of him just random things I decided to text him one night and then we hung out a few days later I ended up going to Bear Lake with his family in July and then that is when things starts officially. I had finally realized that I truly do and did love him the whole time I was just scared. Sure people might think we didn't date that long but we have been friends for over 4 years. 

The proposal:

We had gone ring shopping and found the band I wanted but we decided we would get the center diamond from his brother in laws aunt cause we would get a better deal then if we got it at the same place as where we got the band. I found the band I wanted but the jeweler didn't know if he could size it small enough since I have a size 3 1/2 they decided I could go with a 4 since it was a thick band. I was so happy when we found out they could size it I loved it so much! We got the ring sized and Nate told me he was going to send it to get the center diamond he said it would take three weeks to a month I told him I didn't want to know when he mailed it out because I wanted to be surprised I didn't want to know it was coming. I knew he had shipped it out and thought it would be awhile. Well little did I know he had arranged for it to be overnighted there she set the ring and overnighted back. He made up some story that we were going to go on a double date with his friend Ammo but then a day before Ammo called and said he couldn't go anymore. I didn't think much of it Nate asked if I still wanted to go to dinner so I agreed. He picked me up he had a new shirt on, he got a haircut and I didn't even pick up on it. We went to dinner at the restaurant we went to on our first date, and we were going to go bowling at the place we met for the first time. Seriously I don't know how I didn't pick up on it. On our way home his brother called and said the bowling alley was booked until 9 so we were just going to go back to my house until then. He was texting and driving and I was getting mad at him cause he wasn't staying in the lanes I told him to stop but later I found out he was texting Katelin (my sister) asking if it was all set up and ready. We got to my house we walked into my kitchen and rounded the corner to the front room I saw the benched pushed back and couldn't figure out why and then I saw it he had candles set up and the ring was sitting there. I was shocked because I didn't expect it so soon. It was funny because I fell to my knees in shock he had to pick me off the ground so he could get down on one knee. Of course I said Yes! So that is our story so far.......to be continued.

Its been awhile.....

Sadie's First Halloween

JAZZ game

 

UTES BLACKOUT GAME

Tori and Sadie, look how good Tori looks!

The Cutest Niece Ever!!!!

Sadie Lynn Beesley- Born August 30th, 2009 @ 5:21 PM

I am finally feeling better so I get to see Sadie! She is so cute and little I can hold her in one arm so obviously she is pretty little. Here are a few pictures of her I hope you enjoy. I forget how much babies sleep that is all she does very rarely does she open her eyes. I am excited to watch her grow up.

Miss Sadie Lynn Beesley

She is finally here! I am so excited to be an aunt I can't even explain it. She was born on Sunday August 30th at about 5:30, she was 6 lbs 2 oz and 20.5 inches long and has a head full of hair. I got to see her mins after she was born and she was wide awake. Babies truly are miracles and I love them so much. Sunday was the first and last time I have seen her I got a cold and I don't want to get her sick so I have stayed away but it is killing me not being able to see her. My family has gone to see her everyday while I get to stay home and wish I was there with them. Tori and Sadie will be home on Thursday night and I hope I get over this cold so I can go and visit her.

Before Sadie was born Tori and Spencer were taking bets as to when she would be born. I was way off I said the 21st but when Nate heard Tori's due date was August 29th he said I bet she will be born on my birthday (which is August 31st) he was disappointed when she was born on the 30th. He wanted to win the bet so bad because Spencer said if she was born on his birthday he would give Nate a hug. Needless to say Nate still got a hug from Spencer even though she was born the day before. Now Tori, Spencer, and Sadie's birthdays are all in August! I just love her so much already and I have only seen her once.

Summer Fun

Nate & I over the 4th in Bear Lake


Asleep on the Drive to Montpelier



Tori's Birthday Cake Mess


Funniest event at the Rodeo


Mom & Dad watching the rodeo



Tori, Spencer, and Sadie on her way


Nate & I at the Rodeo


At the Bee's Game


Boating fun


For the fourth of July I went to Bear Lake with Nate's family. It was a really fun weekend, things get a little crazy with his family since their are so many of them I am not used to all the commotion since my family is pretty little. I had a great time but was sad to have to go back to work on Tuesday while the rest of them stayed for the rest of the week. I love hanging out with Nate we have known each other for 4 years now but we are still learning about each other. For the 24th Nate and I went to the Bee's game with his family but on the 25th because he was in Lake Powell on the 24th. I don't really know much about baseball but I am sure I am gonna learn alot since he loves to go to baseball games and watch ESPN every second he gets an opportunity to. He also was on a softball team that just barely ended but he is starting up on another league I think the end of August.

It has been a traditon in my family to go up to Bear Lake for Raspberry Days since I was born. Well this past weekend sure enough it was Raspberry Days and I was so excited to go. I was sad though because Katelin wasn't here this year. This was the first time in all my life she hasn't been there it was kind of sad but I know she is doing what she wants to be doing in New York.
Guess what she comes home on the 16 th of August I am SOOOO excited I can't even explain it! Then Tori is going to have her baby so soon after that she is due August 29th but I think she will have Sadie before that. Anyways back to the story I thought it was just going to be my parents and I this year because Katelin wasn't there and Tori and Spencer weren't going to come up because Tori was afraid she was going to have Sadie by then and if not she was afraid she was going to go into Labor up there and she didn't want that. She went to the doctor the day before we left and her docotor said she that she hadn't even started to diliate so they came with us. Also Nate ended up coming he wasn't going to come up until Saturday afternoon because he had a softball tournament in the morning. We headed up on Friday afternoon and when we were driving I got a call from Nate he told me that two of the five teams had dropped out so the tournament was off and he was on his way up to Bear Lake. I was so excited because I wanted him to spend the whole weekend with my family and I. He made it just in time for the Rodeo to start this is also something we do every year. I love going to that Rodeo because it is a small town rodeo and it is the best. We had a great time and the best thing about it is that I didn't have terrbile allerigies! All my life I have dealt with allergies I just deal with them, but I decided I wanted to start allergy shot about two years ago. It was one of the best decisions of my life sure at the time it sucked I had to go three times a week, get two shots everytime, wait 30 mins after the shots, and a few trips to the instacare since I was having allergic reactions time consuming sure but it was totally worth it. In past years I have had a hard time breathing after and been weezy but I still went. Saturday the 1st was Tori's 25 th birthday so we decided we would celebrate it up there. We were all getting ready to go the the craft fair and Spencer was baking Tori's favorite cake in the oven. The next thing we know we hear a loud crash from the oven my mom just thought one of the racks had fallen but low and behold when she opened it she saw this.....the dish had completly shattered we aren't sure what happened but it was pretty funny. It couldn't be put back together the picture doesn't do it justice at all seriously. Needless to say Tori didn't get her birthday cake we ended up stopping off at some little store in Montipelier. We went to the fair and of course Tori bought more bows for Sadie seriously I think she has a bow to go with every outfit! After the fair we went jet skiing and I made the mistake of going with Nate of course he has to throw me off. When we went flying off he landed right on top of me literally. I got an instant headache and had one for the rest of the day. I still am sore I think I bruised my ribs and I have a bruise on my thigh. He didn't believe he landed on top of me until I told him I was in major pain. After we went jet skiing we decided to go into Montipelier for dinner to some diner I dad wanted to go to. Nate and I fell asleep on the way there and Tori thinks she is funny and takes pictures of us sleeping. When we got back from dinner my dad said we should play poker he seriously loves to play to poker especially when there are other boys around. Nate aways says he is going to kick my dad in poker and never does it is funny to watch him try. Also on Saturday there were fireworks to celebrate Raspberry days. We sat on the beach and watch the fireworks and then back to our poker playing. On Sunday we were packing up to leave and my mom realized my dad had her car keys and he had left about an hour before she realized. He drove my car up so he left earlier then us. Tori called him to tell him and he didn't answer my mom was like great what are we going to do now? Luckily he called back but we had to wait about 45 mins for him to bring them back. I am pretty sure he felt stupid since he had to come all the way back luckliy he wasn't too far away. It was a very eventful trip I best thing would have been if Tori would have gone into labor that would have topped the weekend off! It was a really fun vacation and I am glad that Nate got to spend it with us.

This is their Trial

At Primary's this week I got to hold a little baby. We got a call in the playroom there was a baby that needed to be held. I was the first one to volunteer (the week before I took a call that a baby needed to be held but I was the only one in there so I couldn't and I was pretty disappointed.) The nurse that called sounded like she just needed a break so I was more then willing to go. So when they called on Tuesday I was like I am not going to miss out on this again. I was given the room number having no idea where to go besides the 4th floor I got lost...... but I was so excited I didn't even care. When I walked into the room I looked at the baby he just laid there hooked up to all sorts of machines and crying. My instinct was to pick him up but I didn't know how to go about it because of all of the tubes he had connected to him. I got a nurse to help me get him out of bed. At first I was nervous to hold him because I was afraid I would bump one of the tubes and mess things up so I held him very uncomfortably (I think he could sense the tension I was feeling and he got upset.) I rocked him for a few mins and he fell asleep. As I was sitting there rocking him it made me think of the countless hours I spent in Ecuador with the wee little babies. He woke up and looked at me with his dark brown eyes and I just wanted to spend hours with him. He was so lonely he has been in the hospital since he was born 7 months ago. The crazy thing is that he is a tripulet, when they were born he was the healthiest and then a few weeks later he got a stomach problem and had to get part of his intestines taken out. So he has spent his entire life in the hospital I am pretty sure I am going to get to spend more time with this little guy and I have nothing to complain about I could hold him for my entire shift and be fine with it. So to say in the least this week was a lot better and I am so glad about that! I got to spend an hour and a half holding him, he kept falling in and out of sleep when he would wake up I would just make funny faces at him to get him to smile but he wouldn't. It kind of made me sad to think that at 7 months he doesn't have anything to smile about since he has been so sick. When the nurse came back she was like, "Thank you so much I needed a break I have been working for 11 hours and I just needed a break from a crying baby." I don't blame her. I remember there were times in Ecuador when I would be so tired at night shift and having six babies all crying at the same time. I just felt like I needed a break seriously what I wouldn't give to be there again. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about those kids and how much I truly miss and love them!

Kids truly do have a light about them that others can gain from. Seeing the way the kids I have played with act are like any other kid they just want to have fun and not worry about being sick anymore. The illnesses these kids face are their trials and some might not overcome them and it makes me so sad. I know that I can learn alot from these kids they just have a zest for life and want to feel better. Being in the hospital makes me so grateful for my own health I mean sure I get tired easy and have allergies but I know the kids at the hospital would take that over what they are going through any day!

A little update

What I have been up to lately is: I am working full time and volunteering at Primary Children's. This week will be my third week at Primary's. It has started out pretty rough my first week I went and I was the only volunteer that showed up the lady that was there was just filling in for the lady that is normally there so she didn't know what I was supposed to do. When I left I was pretty frustrated because I like people to explain things to me like what I am supposed to do and where I am supposed to go and none of this happened. They just expect you know what to do and this definately not the case! Then my second week I was left in the playroom by myself for three hours, keep in mind I don't know what I am supposed to be doing. Luckily I worked at treehouse so I still remember some art projects we did there and that is what I did the entire time. By the time I left I was covered in glue, glitter, and paint but I left with a smile on my face. The kids I was playing with got to forget about how sick they are and lose themselves in painting the sun and things they like to do when they aren't in the hospital. This is one of the main reasons I decided to do this I love to bring a smile to kids face that is struggling. 

Life has been interesting since I got home with the loss of my cousins, Tori's brother in law passing away, to someone wanting me to put everything on the line and move away from everything I have ever know to see if we had a chance at the thing called Love.....I obviously didn't choose the choice he wanted me to choose. Tori's belly continues to get bigger and bigger I am getting so excited for little Sadie to grace us with her presence. It is crazy how you can have love for someone that you haven't even met before. I am also looking forward to Katelin coming home in August I just want her to come home already. Every year when my birthday comes around I think about how fast time goes. I can't believe it has been a year since Jace and I went skydiving on my 21 st birthday. It seems just like yesterday when I was floating in the air wondering why my ears hurt so bad and later figuring out I had a sinus infection. Oh wait a year later and once again I have a sinus infection I have had since Feb! I have also been thinking about going back to school to get a master's. I have had a nice break from school for a year and feel like I am not ready to start working full time or maybe I will just travel more since I now have the time. I am excited to see how my life will be like a year from now.